a tantalizing grasp

Current Mood: left out
Current Music: "Another Day in Paradise" by Phil Collins

Everybody around me is happy. I somehow managed to miss that train.

A couple of people are mad at me. A couple of people are leaving me. Some people are ignoring me. A lot of people are far away from me. Spring break isn't for three more weeks. I'm really worried about money and family and things back home. I had a lonely weekend and my back has been randomly hurting lately. My grades are mediocre and I feel really dumb. I'm not working out, reading, or even making it to club meetings anymore. I can't remember when I sat down to watch tv for fun.

Some days I cling to something that feels millions of miles away.

I really don't feel like I'm moving forward much lately. Just sorta...stuck. Receding, even, which is a million times worse.

I wish I could step outside, spread my wings, and fly away. Fly away...far away.