I'm very mad right now at my parents. I really don't know why I am, I love them both. I don't want to feel this way, but I do. I've already yelled at them both and at one or two points, cussed at them. I don't want to act this way, but the stress of it all is really really wearing me down. I starting to feel angry at people and things I usually don't, I feel like I have a short fuse, and I am trying so hard not to let it bother me. It does, however. Really really does. It's hard to focus, and I am lashing out at people in bad ways. I yelled at my dad today, and he actually raised his voice at me. I can count the number of times on my hands my dad has yelled at me, so I felt like crying. I hope nobody who reads this ever has to go through this. I just want to punch something.......oh wait, I tried that. I punched a hole in my wall.........and I almost broke my hand. I punched all the boxes at work and ended up cutting the crap out of my hand. It's self destructive, but I guess I'd rather do that than, say, lash out at somebody at school. My hand will heal in a few days, but frienships take a lot longer. I often wonder if I obsess about other things (namely, my ex-girlfriend) longer than I should because it lets me forget my parents, but I don't know if it helps any. Even worse, by focusing on something else that makes me mad and makes me want to punch things, it also keeps me from enjoying things I do like, like music and flying. I'm pre-occupied and distracted, and I can tell it's affecting my schoolwork already. I want somebody to make this right, but try as they might, nobody, not even my friends can fix this. They can help by encouraging me, making me laugh, and the like, but they aren't here all the time. I don't know what to do anymore.